Mother: I read a new blog this week that got me thinking about weight issues and how we deal with them and why we have the problem in the first place. The blog is http://dimplesonmywhat.com, Paula was writing about Body Confidence in Bigger Pants. She tells how she is coming to accept the weight she is and how though she has gained she doesn’t let it define who she is. I so wish I could follow her example.
I have never, like her friend, not gone to an event because of my weight, but I have come close to it. We have a group of friends that do a rotating party each year for the Kentucky Derby, I always love this party. It is early spring, and usually, not this year, the weather is beautiful and the party is held outside. Spring dresses, cute hats and Mint Juleps, all happy things. But this year my husband and I have been very busy with family so most of the folks at this party hadn’t seen us since Christmas. Well I had been on a sugar kick since mid October and couldn’t get it under control, so as you might guess I had packed on some pounds. I have been friends with most of these people for 20 years. They have seen me through my single days, my thinner days and my heavier days but never as heavy as I was now. I couldn’t find anything in my closet that I felt fit and looked good. And as I told daughter I gave serious thought to not going. I went and had a great time. But on the Monday after I started Weight Watchers.
After a month on WW and a 2lb loss I went back to what I always do keto or low carb. On one of the Facebook pages I belong to regarding keto, someone ask the question, “When did your weight problems start?”. Some of the replies made me cry. I remember years ago in a weight loss group I belonged to, I think it was TOPS which stood for “take off pounds sensibly”, the saying was “it is not what you are eating, it is what is eating you”. When reading the stories these ladies wrote this saying is so very true.
I over eat, in my opinion, because I was hungry a lot when growing up, and now that I am an adult and in control of the food, I over indulge. My thing is sweets, yes I can over eat with almost everything, but I love my desserts. We didn’t have candy, cake or other sweets in our house on a regular basis, we were lucky a lot of times to have any food.
Learning to not eat my feelings is a constant work in progress. Reminding myself that this is not the last cake I will ever be offered, or that Russell Stovers has been making candy for years and will continue to do so for many years to come, and Reese’s Cups probably will not become extinct, is a daily thing. And I have reached an age where health and joints need taken care of everyday. So I keep on keeping on and try to make healthy decisions everyday and on the days I don’t, life will go on.
Till next time.
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