Mother: Do you ever find yourself looking back at the things that use to make you lose sleep? When I was a child at home, I worried that people would find out we were poor. It wasn’t like I knew how much money anyone’s parents made. But because money was a constant worry in our house I thought we were the only ones broke.
Maybe kids of today don’t worry about the crazy things I did. All of my school years it was worry over one thing or another. Did I have the right clothes? Was I wearing the correct shoes? Was the notebook I had the same as everyone else?
As the years went by I lost a lot of sleep over things I had said. My mouth was always getting me into trouble. Even at times when I was sure I hadn’t said something I shouldn’t have I worried. So many times something I had shared came back and bit me on the butt. Laying in bed at night going over in my mind a conversation that I thought was innocent. Finding out in the morning that I had hurt someone’s feelings with a comment or opinion.
When I was dating, I lost sleep over crazy things. Going on a date and worrying about what to wear. If it was with a group would I be dressed appropriately? At dinner what to order? Dating as a teenager or an adult was hard and made me lose sleep.
Now that I have reached the age I have I worry about very little. Part of it I am sure is I have learned to listen more and speak less. But the biggest reason is there are not that many things that I care enough about to worry over. That is not to say I am uncaring, but I know worrying gets you nowhere.
When has worrying ever changed an outcome? If I could go back and talk to my younger self, I would tell me to calm down. I can remember people saying when I was younger “is this going to make a difference in five years”? If only I had listened I would have slept better. If I think back to the things that kept me up, it is hard to remember specifics.
Life is too precious to waste on worry. As I have aged, I know every minute of every day is a blessing so why waste them worrying?
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