Mother: How do we deal when life throws us a curve? Day after day we are going along living life on our own terms and then everything changes. As most know we were spending the winter in Florida this year to get away from the frozen tundra but due to our curve, we are back in the snow. We usually have light-hearted postings but this is not going to be one so if you choose to stop reading now I understand.
The curve we were thrown is cancer. The big C the most hated word anyone wants to hear. As most of you know I was an oncology nurse for many years. My job before I retired was to assist cancer patients as they moved through our health care system. Now I will be assisting my husband as we take our journey into the world of cancer.
My first observation is cancer looks different from this side of the fence. How easy it was to advise and guide when you have no dog in the fight. Keep the patient nutritionally sound I said. It sounded so simple when advising a family member how to help the patient eat well. Don’t let the disease become the center of your world I said more than once. Keep life as normal as you can continue with what you have always done. Words spoke with complete sincerity. Now to have to practice what I preached is very difficult.
The devastation is overwhelming. The lump in the throat never completely goes away. How to talk with no tears. Is God mad at us? Were we too happy and life too easy that we needed brought down? I wake in the middle of the night speaking bible verses. Bible verses mingled with whys. Why did this happen? The mind never stops. My faith is strong all things work together for the good of Gods children. But how can any good come from this diagnosis?
Maybe it is too early for this post but I want the ones praying and thinking about us to know we appreciate them. At some point, I pray I will be the strong person I know am instead of the blubbering sobbing mess I am right now.
Until next time.